I am sending my first kid to kindergarten this year and there are lots of things going through my head. I am a perfectionist that is working on my tendencies to try to control everything. If I don’t know what to expect, I feel out of control. Man, I don’t know what to expect with kinder! I am excited for this new season and I think he will really enjoy the social aspect of it, but I go back and forth between excitement and worry. Here are a few things I’ve been telling myself.
I was homeschooled so we considered all the options. I feel at peace with our decision and I know God is going to take care of him. I can try to prepare him, guard his heart, and shelter him from bad things, but I ultimately have to TRUST in God’s protection.
“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
“He will cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge; His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.” Psalm 91:4
Pray pray pray!
I remind myself daily that I don’t have to have it all figured out. I can try and strive and DO but the thing that will make the most difference is prayer. Prayer not only for my son, but for myself too. I have to pray for my anxiety and worry as we navigate this new season as a family.
I’ve also been challenged to pray over my son as he experiences a brand new thing and extend compassion towards him as he learns and adjusts. His little heart and mind need room to change and grow but this will be a new thing for our whole family.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7
Stop and Remember.
I have been reminding myself how far we have come and all that God has been faithful to do in the past 5 years of my son’s life.
Looking back, I was so stressed about preschool and remembering ALL the things like folders, packing lunches, parties, etc. This year, preschool seems like a breeze compared to kindergarten and I can see how God is going to take me through this year in the same way.
God has also been faithful through illness, behavioral struggles, and major life changes. We lost a close family friend last year that rocked our family. Looking back, I can see where God’s comfort and providence was woven throughout some really painful times.
“I remember the days of old; I meditate on all that you have done; I ponder the work of your hands.” Psalm 143:5
“For the word of the Lord is right and true; he is faithful in all he does.” Psalm 33:4
Mama, God loves your kids more than you ever could! You are not alone in all the feelings of this new adventure called kindergarten. We are praying for you and hope you don’t feel alone!